Racking my brain trying to find a way to better make it in our world.
With 3 kids and bills. Jobs are hard to come by and there is never enough money to get by. I want to try to
take my powerwashing to a new level but there is always some reason, or bill that seems to come first. There
just isn't enough to barely get by. The Government is so out of kilter I don't personally feel there is any help there. Especially for someone like me that has had legal difficulties in the past. There are always those that believe that the past is a predicator to the future..... People do change..... I am trying really hard. Trying to find an angle that is legal etc. I want for my children to have good lives. I want to support them the best way. The American Dream. Where has it gone? More later. It is depressing to say the least. On a positive note both of my children had all A's and B's on there report cards. How great is that. I have to give credit to there Mom for that but myself as well. She works hard as I do to keep them on the right track. I am terrified of drugs and alcohol. I know how easy it is for them to fall into that trap. My life is a perfect example. So how do I combat that? I encourage open communication and tell them stories, share examples of my own experiance so that hopefully they will understand that our choices in life have consequences. That in conjunction with Sports, and Music maybe, just maybe they will not feel the need to experiement. I am not naive but it scares me so. I love them so much and the thought of either of them doing any of the things that I have done in the past is not a thought that I can even entertain..... My parents, God Bless them tried so hard... High School is hard enough without adding dope to the mix....
